Moose. Stomachaches. Emancipation. Life.

Okay. just so you know, this post is gonna be kinda depressing. So, if you're in a good mood, I suggest reading this later.
Anywhore ( I just added that to my laptop's dictionary, Hannah. ), let's begin.
Moose~ I have been OBSESSED with moose lately. It's the Canadian blood kicking in. It's kind of weird, though. I used to hate moose. But now, I can't seem to go a day without saying something about the awesome creatures or the north. ( See? Obsession is taking over my sanity.. ) I don't know how to post a picture, otherwise this area right here, where I am typing, would be used for a picture of a moose. So, I am going to try to make my own moose. F__F ..Yeah, that's my moose. Please, no comments on my moose. It would hurt his feelings. His name shall be Maximilian.
Stomachaches~ This week has been the WORST for stomachaches. Not cramps, which I can deal with, but horrible pains. ( You see, I'd share this with an actual human being, but no one is really willing to listen.. ) Well, anyhow, I haven't been eating as much to see what could be causing it. So far, no luck. Oh well, right?
Emancipation~ Lauren and I were talking about how we cannot stand being under our dips' ( parents' ) guardianship. Then always blaming us, not caring about us, ignoring us, you get the drift. So, Lauren brought up emancipation. I think it's a great idea. We came up with this great plan, too. We share an apartment, right? We would split the bills and switch off buying groceries and doing the laundry and such. But, our dips don't think it's a good idea. As for mine, they can suck it. They're not my real parents anyway, so why do they think I have to listen to them? As for Lauren's, well, I can't say. We've got a couple years, so the idea will just have to grow on the dips.
Life~ In short, life sucks. I hate being adopted. I hate having mixed feelings. And I HATE not knowing who and/or what to believe ( such as friends and religion. ) It's kinda pissing me off. I want to be close with Jaime, but I don't think she wants anything to do with me. I mean, it's typical, but still. Okay, so Jared and I are getting close. But, my feelings are sooo confusing right now. One minute I really like him, the next I am annoyed. I don't know if it's me or what. You know how they say beggars can't be choosers? Who CAN be choosers, exactly? Because I for one, would love to be a chooser right now. Oh, I also found Jaime on Facebook. She's gorgeous. I wish I looked more like her.. It makes me so sad when I can't even know my own mother.. Life blows.
I'm fed up with not being good enough. I'm fed up with being ugly and unwanted. I'm fed up with being all alone. I guess you could say I'm giving up right now, putting it in to emo terms. Well.. Umm.. Ugh.